I look back on my failures with hatred, and understanding of what and why things wint wrong, when i look forward its all dark. I can't see whats befor me, whats behind me, It's slowly fadeing. I stand still to hear the heartbeats I once trusted, I hear them fade in the distance. Im all alone, I see no future, I see no past and all is quiet! I look down at my shoes as I walk forward, showing no one that im crying. I hear the words "I love you" and they mean nothing. I see fake smiles, laughter thats not really there, and I relize that my past has made me this way, only I can control it. Im not letting them in because im scared to lose everyth